May 17th, 2012

panibugho

ikaw.
ang tao na.
kahit ilang ulit mo.
akong saktan.
lokohin.
paniwalain.
at baliwalain.
isang ngiti mo lang.
kahit hindi ako ang dahilan.
basta nakikita kitang masaya.
kahit na iba ang iyong kasama.
kahit na gusto kitang kamuhian.
kahit na kinamumuhian na kita.
babalik pa din ako. 
andito pa din ako.
kasi kahit bumaligtad ang mundo.
ikaw.
ikaw pa din.
ang.
 …(hindi ko masabi)
kailangan ko ng pagmamahal mo.
iyo na ang mga salita mo.
naiiwan ako.
nagugulumihanan.
kung anong mararamdaman ko.
mahal kita.
kinasusuklaman kita.
sa huli.
ganito pa din ako.
at ganyan ka pa din.

 

May 16th, 2012

sastre

Isa kang sastre.
Nakakamtan ang kaligayahan sa paghahabi,
ngunit hindi sinulid ang iyong pantahi bagkus ay mga salita na nanggagaling sa namimilog mong utak.
Dila na kasing talim ng karayom sa tabil ay lumikha ng isang obra ng kasinungalingan na ipinasuot mo sa akin.
Sa bawat pag-ikot ng kamay ng oras, ipinarada ko ang ginawa mong obra, ipinagmalaki na parang akin.
Natanto ang lahat nang ituro ng kamay ang labindalawa; kinailangan kong tumakbo. Magtago.
Manlinlang.
Gaya mo, ginawa mo akong kagaya mo.
Natutunan ko na ding maghabi ng mga salita na ipinapasuot ko sa iba, upang sa gayon ay hindi nila malaman na ikaw ang may gawa.
Gustuhin ko mang putulin ang sinulid ay hindi ko magawa, napakaganda ng kasinungalingang nilikha mo na kung pwede lang suotin ko habang buhay ay gagawin ko.
Kung anong iginanda ng panlabas na anyo nito ay ganoon kagaspang ang pakiramdam sa loob; o doble pa!
Pero titiisin ko ito, kahit gaano pa kasikip; kahit hindi na ako makahinga.
Dahil ikaw ang sastre na may likha sa akin at sa mundo ng kasinungalingang ginagalawan ko.
Kahit gusto kong putulin ang sinulid na nagdudugtong sa atin,
hindi ko maaring gawin.

May 14th, 2012
She never gives a straight answer, always hiding behind a curtain of vague words and round about phrases. She walks in circles, always just out of reach. They call her manipulative, evasive, always twisting what people say to suit her needs, but she’s not like that, not really. She just doesn’t know how not to speak in riddles, how not to build mazes and paradoxical labyrinths with every word she says, because it’s so ingrained into every fiber of her being. It’s a defense mechanism, really, more than anything. When people attack her, when they laugh and scoff at her, she withdraws within herself and spits out sentences that seem to mean everything and nothing all at once. It’s a defense mechanism, because if they can’t find her behind the haziness she’s constructed around herself, they can’t touch her, can’t even hurt her, even if sometimes they’re right when they call her pretentious or false or deceitful. It’s hard to tell which started the other, if she’s like this because they pick apart at her or if they scratch at her until her heart bleeds because she makes mazes. Her life is something of a web of intricacies just like her speech, but she doesn’t know how to do differently, doesn’t know how to stop.

Isabella Sunday  (via pasdedemain)

Because for the first time, I felt like I was SEEN.

(via thoughtsbeneaththecurls)

(Source: larmoyante, via nostalgicallyjaded)

May 11th, 2012

Lord…

embrace me tonight…
this poor shattered heart i’m trying to piece together 
is shattered even more!
embrace me tonight…
this poor soul trying to find it’s way
is now lost even more!
embrace me tonight…
for when i saw something to grasp
it slipped away before i could even touch it.
embrace me tonight…
or my sanity will leave
and insanity will escape out of me. 
embrace me tonight
dear Lord,
embrace me to sleep.
tonight.

#hatrediscreepinginside
 

April 25th, 2012

….

im feeling crappy…and here is the only place i can talk about it.
which made me feel even more crappy.

March 3rd, 2012

okay

i always say it is okay… 

when i say it…

im not sure if i am really okay..

or convincing myself that i am.. 

March 2nd, 2012

wasted..

i just wasted 30 mins watching advertisements ..should have been for watching anime. guuuhhhhh… a lil more and i’m subscribing!.. XD ~annoying ads!… its getting into me.. NOooooo!!!. must keep my patience ..it saves money!.. ^__^

November 18th, 2011

dunno..

i should’ve finished something important., but ended up doing this and that… 
everyday..lagi na lang akong ganito.. XD 

June 2nd, 2011

hahaha!kc nga ung puso ko db..hahaha!pero nkakahinga nko.. =D
Asketh - micotirona

ayyy nako..makulit kasi yang puso mo..itatali ko na yan..haha.

May 24th, 2011